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Jessie introduces herself and her childhood in El Salvador, specifically in a small town in La Unión. She recounts growing up with her grandmother from the age of three after her mother left for the United States to seek a better future for her and her brother. Jessie describes the emotional void of not having her mother present, despite her mother providing financial support and regular communication. She felt a deep sadness and longing for maternal affection, especially when seeing other children with their parents. The most difficult moment of her childhood was experiencing her first menstruation without her mother's guidance, which left her feeling lost and confused. She also harbored resentment towards her mother for leaving her, particularly after her mother had another child in the U.S., which intensified feelings of abandonment.
Jessie recounts her journey to the United States at the age of 11 in 2006. Excited by the prospect of reuniting with her mother, she didn't fully grasp the distance or the permanence of the move. Her reunion with her mother was emotional but also surreal, as she barely recognized her. She met her younger half-sisters for the first time, which brought joy, as she looked forward to having company. Jessie admits to being disappointed by her initial impressions of the U.S., which she had imagined as a paradise, contrasting sharply with the reality she found. She later returned to El Salvador for a vacation in 2022 but found it difficult due to the heat, the rural environment of her grandmother's home, and the underdeveloped infrastructure, solidifying her preference for life in the U.S.
Upon arriving in the U.S., Jessie began school in sixth grade. She quickly learned English, despite initial shyness and the unexpected bullying from some Hispanic peers, while English-speaking students were supportive. She struggled with adapting to the new culture and felt isolated, missing her grandmother and yearning to return to El Salvador. Her mother explained her inability to send her back, and Jessie gradually adjusted to American life, including the food. Jessie reflects on the difficult choices parents from Central America often make, leaving their children to seek better opportunities. She shares a traumatic experience from her journey to the U.S., where she was almost assaulted by the 'coyote' (smuggler) responsible for guiding her, highlighting the dangers faced by migrants, especially children.
Jessie concludes by reflecting on her journey. When asked what advice she would give her younger self, she encourages her to come to the U.S. because of the better future it offers. Despite the challenges, she does not regret her decision to migrate and appreciates the life she has built. She acknowledges that her childhood experiences, including the absence of her mother and the traumatic journey, were part of her growth and transformation. She emphasizes the difficult decisions parents in her home country often face, having to leave their children for economic survival, making the arduous and dangerous journey to the United States for a better life.