Summary
Highlights
The speaker visited St. Mary Moorfields and had a brief five-minute conversation with Reverend Vickers, the parish priest. Due to Reverend Vickers' rush to another church, the speaker barely received a blessing, and the priest humorously (or perhaps seriously) doubted he'd remember to convey greetings to Father Peter.
The speaker found it strange to share their complex personal story, including issues of paternity denial and previous consultations in Rome about a Catholic divorce alternative, only for the priest to appear uninterested, check his watch, and express his lateness. The priest concluded by stating the speaker's situation likely wouldn't resolve soon and wished them good luck, which the speaker described as a direct quote.
The encounter led the speaker to reflect on the perceived 'waste' of revisiting places connected to their past life beginnings. It brought into perspective their view of religion, questioning whether a previous statement that studying theology and engaging in religion was their biggest mistake was indeed true. The speaker ponders if the next chapter of their life will provide clarity.
The speaker recalls a past conversation with Father Peter about the positive feeling of 'wasting one's life for God.' The underlying thought is that if life is inherently a waste, it might as well be spent on something eternal.