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Dr. Ramani addresses the common question of whether narcissists are aware of their narcissistic traits and insecurities. She explains that they aren't delusional and understand the consequences of their behavior, although they rationalize and defend it. In a tiny corner of their minds, they know their actions are problematic but feel an inability to stop due to impulsivity and entitlement.
There's a critical point in a narcissistic relationship when the narcissist realizes you've caught on to their game. This is subtle, marked by changes like not taking the bait, grey rocking, and holding yourself differently. They perceive this as you've peered into their insecurity, which they dislike.
When you start to 'grey rock' or show your understanding, the narcissist's rage and abusive behavior will escalate. They will become meaner, insulting friends, family, and targeting your triggers to provoke a reaction. This period is described as a 'roller coaster' of intensified toxicity.
Despite their lack of empathy, narcissists are highly attuned to their environment, constantly monitoring for perceived threats and disrespect. When they notice shifts in your behavior, they understand that you're 'on to them,' which activates their shame. They don't like feeling 'handled' by others.
Narcissistic relationships are fundamentally about control: controlling narratives, people, and narcissistic supply. Once you understand their tactics, they will attempt to control you even more. However, your understanding destabilizes their control, leading to further frustration and rage from their side. While this transition can be difficult and unpleasant in the short term, it ultimately provides a path to freedom from self-blame and confusion.