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The speaker reveals that three of her top five most popular YouTube videos are about winning the lottery, prompting her to provide an update. She explains that she has been using the 'I Am' technique to manifest a lottery win for the past five years, emphasizing that for her, playing the lottery is about certainty, not chance or gambling.
Initially, the speaker was winning regularly using the 'I Am' technique, but these wins were often less than the cost of the ticket, leading to a feeling of losing money despite winning. This highlighted a subconscious assumption that 'to win also equaled to lose.' Despite extensive work on various assumptions related to winning, she couldn't break free from winning only small, 'measly' amounts, which caused frustration.
Frustrated, the speaker decided to stop actively 'working' on manifesting the win, believing she had done enough. She switched to buying lottery subscriptions, assuming her win was 'already done.' However, this led to her stopping all wins, even the small ones, which left her stumped and led to a temporary break from playing the lottery.
During her break, a memory from age 8 resurfaced: a poem she wrote called 'Bad Luck,' which ended with the line, 'I found I'd won the lottery. Too bad I was already dead.' Recognizing the power of her writing and childhood emotions, she realized this could be a subconscious block preventing her from a major lottery win, fearing death if she won. She then worked on revising this memory and affirming her safety to win.
After addressing the 'dead' poem, the speaker resumed playing, but the same patterns of small wins or no wins returned. A powerful realization struck her: a past trauma related to the US Green Card lottery. For 8 years, she had been paying a website to enter her into the lottery, only to discover it was a complete scam and her applications were never submitted. This created a deep subconscious assumption that 'playing the lottery is a complete scam,' leading to disappointment and a belief that she would never win. This revelation explained the recurring pattern of not winning major prizes.
Awareness of this deep-seated trauma has given her command over it. She views this discovery as a gift, clarifying a major block in her lottery manifestation journey. While she's still working on revising this memory, she has changed her approach to playing the lottery. Instead of Powerball or Saturday lottery, she now plays charity lotteries, where her money contributes to a good cause, making the experience feel 'good and right' for her. She emphasizes using lottery experiences as opportunities for growth and to deepen one's connection to the 'I Am' principle.