Summary
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Paul, a Pittsburgh high school student, is suspended and faces his teachers for various misdemeanors. Dressed flamboyantly with a red carnation, his demeanor is one of contempt and theatricality, deeply offending his instructors. Despite their combined grievances and attempts to connect with him, Paul remains unyielding, his 'boyish mirthfulness' often interpreted as insolence. His drawing master, however, senses a deeper, 'haunted' quality about him, revealing Paul's mother died shortly after his birth in Colorado, suggesting a possible root to his troubled temperament. The teachers leave feeling humiliated, while Paul, indifferent, heads to his ushering job at Carnegie Hall, deliberately avoiding supper at home.
At Carnegie Hall, Paul transforms, becoming a model usher, finding immense joy and vivacity in the world of music and glamour. His English teacher's unexpected appearance, dressed 'in such togs' for the orchestra seats, is met with Paul's disdain, highlighting his disconnect from his ordinary life. He immerses himself in the symphony, particularly captivated by the soprano soloist's 'world shine' and 'veritable queen of romance' aura. After the concert, unable to let go of the 'delicious excitement,' Paul stalks the soprano to her hotel, the Shenley, where he fantasizes about entering its luxurious world, only to be jolted back to the reality of his cold, wet surroundings outside, guarded by 'mocking Spirits'.
Paul returns home reluctantly, filled with a 'nerveless sense of defeat' and a 'hopeless feeling of sinking back forever into ugliness and commonness'. He detests his 'horrible yellow wallpaper' room, his father's appearance, and the monotonous, respectable street where everyone and everything is 'exactly alike'. He sneaks into the basement, afraid of confronting his father, and spends the night conjuring morbid fantasies about his father shooting him. The next day, immersed in the dreary routines of church and Sabbath school, Paul observes his neighbors and father, who holds up a 'model' young man for him to emulate—a man who married for practicality and is a 'cash boy' success story. Paul, despite his dislike for the 'iron Kings' stories, is drawn to the romance of their wealth.
Paul, having secured carfare from his father under the pretense of geometry help, washes away the smell of his home life and heads downtown. He spends his nights at the theater and Carnegie Hall, where he 'really lived', finding in these artistic spaces a 'fairy tale' and a 'secret Temple'. His teachers' theories of his 'perverted imagination' are countered by his ability to create his own plots and pictures from music. He despises school, its 'prosy men' and 'shrill voices', and boasts to his classmates about his connections to the actors and soloists, fabricating elaborate stories. Eventually, his dismissive attitude and fabricated stories lead to his removal from school and his ushering job, and he is forbidden from the theater, cutting off his only escapes. Unbeknownst to his family and employers, Paul steals a significant sum of money from his office's bank deposit and takes a train to New York City.
Paul travels in a day coach to New York, wary of being recognized. Upon arrival, he embarks on a shopping spree, buying a lavish wardrobe, silver, and a scarf pin, meticulously crafting his new persona. He checks into the Waldorf, fabricating a story about his parents being abroad, and secures a luxurious suite. This meticulously planned escape fulfills his long-held dream, offering him a sense of 'relief' from his lifelong 'apprehensive dread' and the 'meshes of the lies he had told'. He indulges in the opulence of his hotel suite, enjoying the flowers, his new clothes, and the feeling of having finally thrown down the gauntlet to his anxieties. He reflects on the ease of his theft, and how he had 'always been tormented by fear', but now experiences a curious sense of freedom. He revels in his newfound identity, driving Fifth Avenue, admiring the city's winter spectacle, and indulging in fine dining at the Waldorf, where the music, champagne, and vibrant atmosphere cement his belief that this is 'what all the world was fighting for'.
Paul spends several days immersed in his fantasy, undisturbed, even falling in with a 'wild San Francisco boy' one evening. He finds peace and self-respect in shedding his 'petty lying' and 'boastful pretensions', genuinely believing he is finally 'dressing the part'. Remorse is absent. On the eighth day, Pittsburgh papers reveal his theft and his father's efforts to find him. The reality of 'Cordelia Street' and its 'gray monotony' crashes down on him, bringing with it a 'sickening vividness' of his past. Despite a moment of despair, he rallies, determining to 'finish the thing splendidly'. He drinks recklessly, affirming his belief that he was 'born to the purple', and that his escape 'had paid'. The next morning, a painful hangover and a crushing clarity hit him. He sees that 'money was everything' and that his escape was winding down. He rejects the idea of suicide by pistol, and instead takes a cab to the ferry and then to Newark. Walking along the tracks, his mind fills with irrelevant details. He stoops to bury a drooping carnation in the snow, realizing the 'splendid breath' of beauty is fleeting and that his 'revolt against the homes by which the world is run' is a losing game. As an approaching train signals his end, he jumps, experiencing a final flash of the 'blue of Adriatic water, the yellow of Algerian Sands', before his consciousness ceases.